Superbat Big Bang 2019

So I entered my first fanfic Big Bang (as a writer) and wow! Had I known the amount of sheer guts and coffee I would have to run through to see this thing done, I might have reconsidered.

Looking back now, I feel creeping dread and the lingering certainty that this is a madness I will probably be attempting again next year. Because the thing is, the Bang isn’t just about writing, it’s also surprisingly about community. It’s about long night up sweating through sprints with fellow caffiene addicts and night-owls. It’s about venting, bitching, haranguing characters and having yourself a good ol feels-oriented tantrum from time to time. It’s about trying new narrative styles and pushing yourself that much further to the finish line.

It’s about friends. It’s about us, and fandom and fandom family.

Anyway, before I get any more longwinded about this incredible process (that I am still processing, by the way), on to the fic!

I and my co-writer Spacewolfcub worked with artist Ms.3 to bring you

Title: Supplicant

Fandom(s): DCEU, MCU, Gotham, Smallville

Author(s): Holdt & Spacewolfcub

Artist: Ms.3

Length: 51k


Only he can pull Bruce out of the darkness…

The training and scars of Nanda Parbat run deep— Bruce has always fought the demons that make him want to stalk the night and rend pain unto the deserving. After a decade of trying to stay afloat, using BDSM as both punishment and moral compass, he turns to The Agency. Through them, he finds Mistress Ivy, whose Services help him keep ahead of the encroaching darkness… until he finds his lifeline gone without warning when Ivy’s extreme methods and poison play are revealed and she is exiled.

The Agency has a reputation to uphold, secretive as they are. For years, they’ve offered him a chance at salvation—for a price. It is no different now and Bruce grasps desperately at their offer. Can the Service Provider known as Mr. S, the so-called “SuperDom,” help him rein in the Bat?

Only he can bring Clark into the light…

When you’ve been on the run for as long as Clark, you know the look of a drowning man. The Agency asked him to consider this new client, one whose need tempts Clark beyond the well-established boundaries he’s set for himself. Can the Bat inspire him to explore his own needs and desires outside of the perfect image of Mr. S he’s spent years hiding behind?

[Read Supplicant on AO3]

Also, theres a fanmix .  😉

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It All Began by Kinkmeme – A Fanfic Story

So I admit that I trawl the (conspicuously anon) archives of the dcu/dceu/dccu kinkmemes. I do. I have no shame about this.

What I’d never done was actually submit to any of these communities.

Until now.


I took on a prompt that seemed at first glance to be an “easy in’ – can’t take more than 2-5k, I thought to myself with unseemly glee, ready to flex my kink muscles.

Yup. That was me…

….back in late April.


Now it’s January, and I’ve managed to post about 100k and am in the fourth in said BDSM, Bottom Clark, Dominant Bruce (though Dominant b/c of dynamics, not who tops/bottoms!!) series.

I’ll be posting chapter 7 of 14 in part IV sometime this week, adding 6k to my wordcount.

I have another 40-60k in the wings waiting for my longsuffering beta reader.


  • It’s been rec’d. More than once!! What is happening in the world?
  • It’s inspired/prompted two fan-covers (by ManicMea):
  • A particular fanartist  (handled ‘Albi’) who Ive followed for some time (you may recall the Superbat manga of ‘right in front of my salad’ with Diana at the counter? Yeah..Albi) both rec’d and contacted me with these amazing beauties!

Control by Albi

(The other two are in-line on the AO3 host page and the available epub from AO3)

So I’ll just leave that story link right here…

Position Assurance Series by Holdt

How long will this go on? Well, until the story is finished, I suppose. Aiming for 200k written this year (in total, not just this project).

Wish me luck!

All of this is just to say how incredibly honored and amazed I am at the top of this year. Fandom, fam… fandom is fucking amazing. 

And it requires a response.

Thanks everyone for their help, whether reading, encouraging/cheer-leading, creating art, having written something that further inspired me,  alpha views, arguing canon vs fanon over pastries with me, debating/interrogating the differences between bottom-shaming/misogyny and BDSM subbing when the sub IS the bottom…

You know who you are. Thank you.

ETA: FYI, if you know this is trggering/disliked/material you as an adult CANNOT HANDLE, then do us both a favor and just skip the links. You will not be welcomed. You will not convince me that I am doing wrong. You will only waste your time with a non-hetero genderqueer feminist who is in no mood for your shit. 😀

Fic: The Other Time Lord

The Other Time Lord [AO3] by